"I really should write something although quite frankly it's the last thing I feel like doing. Just felt down all day - I know it's got a lot to do with the low weight but knowing what is causing it doesn't stop me feeling it. I need to write stuff about last night and how I'm dealing with this whole thing but I can't. I'm so tied up in this skein of confusion that I can't see a way out. I need to be strict with myself and do it for me. I know this seems such a self-indulgent disease but its not. I've got to start putting myself first. What matters now is getting through this and moving on, I cannot keep living like this. I found myself pouring my heart out to Nikky and ended up bawling my eyes out. She was so kind and understanding and has made me think that perhaps I'm not so selfish as I think."
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