Lizzie's diary, 28th February 2008

Diary entry: 26th February
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This week has been a real struggle. Although Hannah has been in touch regularly, there is only so much she can do. I’ve felt my resolve waning and I have been really low today. I’ve tried to keep myself ‘up’ and busy but it feels like a real façade. I can’t allow myself to get depressed and wallow in self-pity, but I could do with a little TLC. I don’t want to admit how I really feel to anyone, just want to reassure them that it is going well when actually it is not getting easier at all.
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Decided to try another approach to my afternoon snack as previous tacks have not been wholly successful – macadamia nuts and dried cranberries nibbled while practicing the piano. One to be eaten every time I made a mistake. Very filling (I’m no Ashkenazy) but not too bad as snacks go. And it goes to show that you really are what you eat (nuts. Ho ho ho.)
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But the main problem now is that it is 6 o’clock already. I’ve got to defrost something for dinner but I don’t want to have to think about food anymore. Oh dear, it is all going pear-shaped. I know how it feels.