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How do I go forward from here? On one side I have Barry & Simon with the go straight to hospital comments, do not pass go attitude and on the other I have Hannah and the voice of reason maintaining that I can do it. Sorry, I'm having another angry moment. I'll calm down now.
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I think I need to establish a routine and stick to it over the few days/weeks in order to have make a consistent weight gain by the end of January. I can feel myself wavering and I think it could be due to last weeks weight loss. I am definitely less resolved when I am lighter. I just hope tomorrow's "weigh-in" (ugh) is a positive one. I think I should forego any trips to London over the next week or two to remove any scope for sophistry.
I think I need to establish a routine and stick to it over the few days/weeks in order to have make a consistent weight gain by the end of January. I can feel myself wavering and I think it could be due to last weeks weight loss. I am definitely less resolved when I am lighter. I just hope tomorrow's "weigh-in" (ugh) is a positive one. I think I should forego any trips to London over the next week or two to remove any scope for sophistry.
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At last people are starting to comment on the website. It really does make an enormous difference - makes it seem more real. Yet however much I welcome the comments, I can't agree with those that think we can't do anything except cart me off to hospital. OK, if nothing has changed by the time the deadline is reached, I will agree to it, but in the meantime we don't just have to sit twiddling our thumbs until we can say I told you so. So whatever the scales say tomorrow (and fingers, toes, eyes crossed there will be a gain) I'm going to ask Stephanie for a prescription for Clinutren. There, I've written it so I'm going to do it.
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Well that was a first. I knew I was going to struggle with dinner so I texted Hannah before I started and asked her to text me in half and hour to tell me to finish the bloody thing. And I did. It wasn't that much, but it did give me a sense of achievement rather than having that nagging feeling of not having done enough.
Well that was a first. I knew I was going to struggle with dinner so I texted Hannah before I started and asked her to text me in half and hour to tell me to finish the bloody thing. And I did. It wasn't that much, but it did give me a sense of achievement rather than having that nagging feeling of not having done enough.
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Remember this feeling - it's nice. Fullness = satisfaction = good. Well done. Legend. Now go and eat your cheesecake.
Remember this feeling - it's nice. Fullness = satisfaction = good. Well done. Legend. Now go and eat your cheesecake.
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God I'm full. Please tell me this feeling will pass and that this will have gone down by the morning.
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